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内心的郁闷

2011-06-07T22:29:00.000-07:00

两人的性格原已不同。就连身边周遭的朋友群也不一样。待人处事方面更以不同的方式来对待。种种的问题真的使我很烦也很迷惑。

两人的背景不同。一个受英文教育的、另一个受华文教育的。这难免会导致一些在思想上面的不摩擦。

Facebook 原属建立友谊之桥的桥梁。可却变成我们之间的矿坑。

这些该怎们处理......

未来的路

2011-06-07T09:40:00.000-07:00

近期又受了一个挫折，感到有点沮丧。但我同时也相信在人生的道路上遇到挫折是难免的，我们应该从挫折中吸取经验，放开心胸，继续往前走。

以上是每个人的一个普遍想法。

难道当你真的想得到某件东西，那就真的必须付出努力才能得到吗？一旦没付出任何努力就得不到吗？还是要怪自己的运气不好呢？

当我一踏进大学，我已在为自己的未来铺路。想要进军中文媒体是我的兴趣，我的目标。随后在电视网络中出现的一些活动，例如：才华横溢出新秀，我要当DJ, 我都去参加了。

这里得声明，不是为了名利，而是为了事业。

这可不就是为了以后的事业而付出的一点努力吗，一点行动吗。可是怎么总是失败呢？就连前8或10名都不如，那些进的，真的有那么好吗？

3个子：不公平。

不是我太高估自己，但是自己的确有些实力。

也许缺乏些运气吧。

真糟

2011-04-10T10:02:00.000-07:00

《红玫瑰与白玫瑰》的评论没被选中，看是我的文学底子太差了，分析能力也不够强，那我要怎么继续走下去我的文学道路呢？

失落。

≪寒夜≫一读

2011-04-01T12:16:00.000-07:00

刚读了巴金的≪寒夜≫。

“惨”。

另外也想到一句话，

“我什么都不要，只要你快乐。因为你快乐，所以我快乐。”

在此与大家分享。

HC214 剧场短评

2011-03-21T01:24:00.000-07:00

隐藏在人心背后的双面性

真真假假、假假真真。哪一个是爱情？哪一个又是欲望？

剧作《红玫瑰与白玫瑰》是一出男人的戏，一出男人成长的戏。它所描写的就是关于男人心中，爱情与欲望的一个拉锯战。时不时心灵受爱情所控，时不时心灵又在欲望魔爪的引诱下给拉着走，莫衷一是，黯然销魂。

导演田沁鑫在剧场表演形式方面可说是下足了功夫，巧妙地通过“两人饰一角”这等相当另类的舞台表演方式把《红玫瑰与白玫瑰》呈现在观众面前。而在舞台的设计方面也别出心裁，由一条以内往外延伸的玻璃长廊把舞台空间一分为二。一边是冰清玉洁、清纯可人的孟烟鹂（白玫瑰），另一边是一艳丽多姿、充满热情的王娇蕊（红玫瑰）。这里展现出舞台的一个双面性。

在剧情中，男主角（佟振保）与女主角一（孟烟鹂饰白玫瑰）以及女主角二（王娇蕊饰红玫瑰）这三个人物之间的互动都由两名演员饰演。各个人物的双重性扮演彻底地反映了现实人物内心背后的双面性。有如天使与恶魔一般，人往往在表面上就像天使附身，扮演着一个“好人”的角色，可是内心却像受着恶魔的召唤。意志薄弱的将“犯罪”，而意志牢固的就必须承受着心灵上一种“对与错”抉择之间的折磨。作为观众，我们就如一个偷窥者，窥视着人们心灵上的感受。

佟振保在名义上与孟烟鹂是夫妻关系，这也是一个爱情的象征。他但因禁不起老朋友王士洪妻子（王娇蕊）的诱惑，辜负了朋友一直以来对他的信任，埋下祸根，与王娇蕊发生了关系。到了最后他虽然回到了孟烟鹂的身边，却始终对离开的王娇蕊恋恋不舍。在每个过程中，佟振保的心理挣扎是十分激烈的。他的内心一直处于在天使与恶魔的交织战中，似乎问着自己：“应不应该去占有王娇蕊？还是安守本分，对孟烟鹂忠心相待？”当他得到了王娇蕊后，可见他曾乖乖的屈服在恶魔的手里，这也就意味着欲望的胜利。

戏剧从一个家庭透视了整个社会。佟振保无愧就是现实社会一个典型男人的缩影。他撕开了男性所带的假面具。“男人应该尽责做一个爱妻的好丈夫”、“对妻子的爱应该是最为真挚的”、“男人不应该花天酒地”等等，此类的句子是社会寄予在男人身上的一种要求与准则。而“得到的不懂得去珍惜”、“得不到的才是最好的”、“结婚的不是最爱的人”等等，此类的句子则带出了男人的本性，他们真实地一面。大多数的男人是敌不过“欲望”的，尤其是“性欲”。寻找另一个女人就属于一种“性欲”的追求、“性释放”的一个渠道。

经过了许多内心战后，佟振保最终还是选择重新成为一个好人，一念之下把自己的欲望，就像戏中，用力地给掐死了。这也使他脱离了“爱情，欲望，抉择不清楚”的一个状态，回到了在社会认同下的一个模，回到他爱情的归宿。这使他看破了“红”尘，为了延续未来与孟烟鹂的日子而做出的改变。

戏中有一个片断特别有趣，当佟振保要求孟烟鹂与王娇蕊同时摆出一个姿势时，孟烟鹂摆出的是一个传统戏剧中一个手势，显得高雅有气质。而王娇蕊却摆出一个挺胸的姿势，显得相当的妖艳。从这里可以看出社会中两个极端女性的象征，一个传统，一个开放。当然，王娇蕊所摆出的姿势在佟振保眼里表现出这种女人是可以“玩”的，这也就难怪他会禁不起欲望的诱惑，和她搭上了关系。可是最后能不能娶又是另一个问题了。这也就反映出现代男性“做而不理”的一个现象。

最后，张爱玲曾说过：“写了戏，总希望做戏的人一个个给它口生人气，让它在舞台上‘活’起来，戏是给人演的，不是给人读的。”中国国家话剧院的《红玫瑰与白玫瑰》，在导演、编剧、演员及幕后人员的齐力配合与打造下，为观众带来如此的一出优秀作品。我相信 - 张爱玲在天可说是松了一口气。

“女人是无色的玫瑰，她们往往在别人的眼里产生出了颜色。”

My Blog Picture is back!!

2010-02-23T08:02:00.000-08:00

weee~~~~~ I am back! 大学虽然苦闷烦躁，但是其中还是有乐趣的。今天是我的第一次在NTU表演唱歌，with ah lun, ah pok and ah xiang. 拿了“最佳人气奖”，还蛮开心的。

更开心的是，我的Blog Picture又能看了！谢谢你！ =)

2009-11-13T08:01:00.000-08:00

exam is coming. jiayou to whoever views this blog.

freshie

2009-11-03T06:34:00.001-08:00

i want to be fake freshie! =(

omg.

2009-11-02T07:21:00.001-08:00

Today i just told weiqi something! argh~~~!!!

Hello!

2009-07-03T09:11:00.001-07:00

Hello! Thank you for viewing my latest entry!

erm... lets write something simple..

Uni is about to start. There are so many things that need to be settled urgently. School fees, hostel application, bursary, etc etc. Hope everything would turn out to be fine.

Thats all. Byebye!

Hello? Anyone there?

2008-10-26T20:50:00.000-07:00

After wenjun telling me to view his blog, I've decided to pay my own lost blog a visit. Well, still the same. No change. hehe.

lets blog...

2005-11-24T06:26:00.000-08:00

I'm back from a 3 days 2 night chalet at downtown east. Now my throat hurts. Maybe i've eaten too much chips during the nights that we mad over winning eleven 8, or maybe because of the bbq? frankly speaking, overall the chalet is sian, only the bbq during the first night was fun cuz i got to see alot of old faces. chou meng lar, shawn lar, etc... chou meng still very shuai4 i can say... haha... oh well, other than the first day, the other days juz simply locked ourselves in the room and played xbox. ----> no life! actually i wanted to go escape de, cuz wenjun got 4 free tickets, these 4 tickets were catered to mi, wenjun, grace and sinying de... den in the end we din even use them...
isn't it fun to go escape together as a class? we can actually divide the entrance fees equally among those who want to go, thus it will be fair, everyone pays... haix... nvm.... its over...
am going back to china soon, this coming 28th midnight plane. i can actually help ur pple to buy things from there cuz its cheaper, who wants anything from china juz tag below... i will look at it de.. hehe... so bon voyage to mi.... and cya guys next year! WORK HARD!

after a long hibernation.

2005-11-19T07:08:00.000-08:00

minchao... blog leh......

promo over.....

2005-10-10T07:27:00.000-07:00

retain?

or not?

Colours award...

2005-08-19T07:08:00.000-07:00

Aren't you happy to see my blog published again?
Aren't you happy to see my blog published?
Aren't you happy to see my blog?
Aren't you happy?
Aren't you?

Time indeed flies like hell. JC1 promotion examination is just around the corner. I
just came back from school’s Colours Award Presentation. I was chosen to perform a solo piece in front of all the Njcians again. In fact, I was forced to. Nevertheless, my effort was paid off. I’m able to gain my reputation in Nj, feel proud though, but it is not what I have been craving for. Not really committed to school’s huayue, because I can’t feel the bond between all members. Overall, it is fine.

Grace, do you know how badly I had done for my common test? I failed every subjects except Chinese AO. GP = 40, Chemistry = 35.6, Economics = 42,
Mathematics = 42. How?
I can’t even get promoted to JC2 if I score this kind of results again for my promotion examination. All my other classmates can pick up everything that is taught during lessons and lectures quickly, I am like so dumb in the class. Based on my observations, River Valley, Catholic High, St Joseph Institution people are really fast learners. I can say they are much more clever than Wenlong, Huimin. Can’t really catch up with them. I admit that I never prepared well for my common test but I’ve promised myself I will work hard. (100% unwilling to get retained.)

Jiayou everyone out there! Study hard!

(another fine product from minchao) (formal English)

First Fine Product...

2005-08-11T06:50:00.000-07:00

People always ask,"What's so great having a blog of yours? What is the use of it? Why are there so many people using blog? What are the benefits in return? What... Why..." and the question goes on...

From my point of view, owning a blog is not great at all, its just a online diary where you share your person experiences, your happenings and other craps with the people around you.
writing blog has became a common part of life in many youngsters, it forms a habit. You may ask,'' Are you sure?" i would just answer," don't believe? Ask Grace, Sinying, Jiafeng them larh!"
*please don't laugh/smile yet*

Well, from the readers view, the benefits from blog are to keep track of your friends. Since owning a blog has developed into a current trend in the society, it is easy for me to know how are you people going, anything great happened to you, to enter your life etc... But it is not easy to enter my life right? *mouth curve 2 inches upwards*

So... What should be done?

The first that gets into your mind is, "he will blog more often this time..." Right?

*don't laugh/smile, i know it has been a hard time for you to bear the laughters...*

My answer is,'' Don't you think it is better to keep my profile low?"" Don't you think it will get bored over reading the person's new entries day by day?""It will be rather refreshing and amazing to see my blog appears once again infront of your computer monitors RIGHT??!!"

*right, you may laugh now*

[ first fine product from this blog ] [ using formal english ]

blog reopening...

2005-08-10T08:33:00.000-07:00

PPLE!!!

ME HERE, OFFICIALLY ANNOUNCE THAT MY BLOG IS BACK TO NORMAL!!!

*clap clap clap*

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2005-07-16T05:29:00.000-07:00

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